And I think to myself...

I don't know what's wrong with me, but I seem to have had some kind of paradigm shift.  I used to be able to walk past the homeless people, and not be bothered.  I used to be able to see stories about people being murdered in Echo Park, and feel removed from it.  I used to be able to walk past teenage mothers pushing babies around in strollers and not think to myself, "God, that must be her sister.  Right?  That MUST be her sister.  Right?"  I know it's not her sister though.  Don't get me wrong, I can still see all the good in the world too... but there just seems like there's so much bad here too.  All of this just makes me want to find all the people I wonder about sooner and quicker.  i locate a person I went to high school not too long ago via person search and she was just... not good.  She was one of the smartest girls in our class when I knew her... but then everything just sort of went wrong apparently.  Her brother got in a car accident, hit his head and was never the same.  Her dad left her mom.  She dropped out of college to come home to help everyone.  She finished college to become a therapist... but then got thyroid cancer.  She is now in remission, but she is SO thin... like... anorexic thin, it was so scary.  I talked with her about it, and asked if I could do anything for her, but all she said I could do was pray.  The problem with this is that I'm an atheist.  Still, I told her I would.  Anyway... wow.  I just re-read what I wrote, and this is depressing!  I am sorry!  Good things that happened this week is my friend got a raise.  My mom found a new friend she really likes at her church.  The homeless guy on the corner has new shoes.  So... there are good things happening too.  One good thing is FindAnyoneNow.net - Finding Email Addresses Online article.  It's really really good, and really really helpful.  Check it out... and I'll check out not being such a downer when I blog. ;-)